The Drs. Appt

Last night, Chris and I went to Knoxville because Chris had to be at the dr. by 7:30. We drove through some terrible storms, dodged fallen debris on the interstate, and didn't get much sleep because the mattress was as hard as a rock. We had a terrible time, but I was still praising God, because we had transportation to get there, we were not in any accidents, we had money for the dr. and the hotel room (eventhough it was a Red Roof Inn, nothing fancy). But, things didn't turn out the way I wanted today. I can't go into much detail but the test (that has to be done to see if his medicine is working) has been postponed for another week or two. That means more time traveling, more money spent, and more anxiety. I feel bad because I became upset. I just wanted one thing to go my way!!! One piece of good news! But, I know, I should try not to let my emotions get the best of me. It only makes things worse. Chris is a great husband and will be a great dad one day. I don't want to make him feel guilty or sad. I don't need test results to tell me things will be ok....God can do that! "Praise God even when the Devil is working on you." Matthew 19:25But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With Men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.

Putting the Pieces Together.

I have already started to get the butterfly feeling.... Chris has an appt. this coming week, in Knoxville, to see if the meds are working. Please pray that they are!!! Our dr.is in Cincinnati, but he was kind enough to allow us to do some test in Knoxville (so we'd be closer to home). I was thinking, today, about how God's plan is so perfect, it all fits together like puzzle pieces. Before I even knew what our fertility issues were, I prayed for God to lead us in the right direction. First I felt like I should go to a regular OBGYN, so I did. It was there, that we learned that Chris needed to see a dr. She recommended the dr. (we are now seeing in Cincinnati). I prayed more and was lead to a fertility specialist (in Knoxville). It was there, that we spent lots of money and had lots of heartache. We did 4 rounds of IUIs (inseminations that are done to get "it" closer to the egg.) Each time, we were expecting to get good news, but we never did. I questioned God a lot during this time. Why would He lead me to this place? This Dr? Why would he intend on us spending this much money? I kept telling my bff that I felt like God was leading me here, but didn't know why. But, you see, its part of the puzzle! Part of his plan! This was part of our trial, our journey. And oh, how much He has taught me along the way!! Now, we are seeing a Male Reproductive Specialist/Uriologist in Cincinnati, but Chris is able to have his test done in Knoxville (with our old dr.). So, you see, God had a plan all along. He lead me to these drs, and they are all playing a part in our journey. I wouldn't change a thing!!! "Truely I have spoken, truely I will bring it to pass. I have planned it. surely I will do it!"Isaiah 46:3-11

Yesterday's Mail....From:????

So yesterday, I opened the mailbox, and to my surprise there was a card. A Congratulations on Your Baby card!?!?! The outside of the card said, "Misty, Congratulations on the Birth of Your Baby!" The inside was a description of a Mother. My first thought was, "Who could be this cruel?" (the card said it was from area businesses). "The Devil sure knows how to get you when you are down!" But then I calmed down a bit, and a sense of peace filled my body. I remembered what a Pastor said the other day.... "When the Devil is out to get you, praise God. This lets the Devil know that his game is not working!" I took the card in and showed it to Chris. He threatened to call the place it was from. But I refused to let him. I said, "I am going to put this up so that it can remind us of whats to come!" Corithians 5:7 "We live by faith, not by sight."

God soothes our broken heart!

Don't have a lot on my mind today... Just thinking about some things I heard from Preacher David Jerimiah. During our weakest moments, God soothes our heart and lets us know that things are going to be ok.
I know this to be true. I remember one of those days He did this for me. The one that sticks clearly in my mind. It was a day when I felt like my heart had been torn out. I had just started my period, and didn't see anything positive in sight.
I was driving up our drive, and I couldn't take any more. There, in my car, like I have many times, I poured my heart out to Jesus. I was so desperate for comfort, and I just begged Him to help me.
Then, a sense of calmness came over me. I knew everything was going to be ok. I knew that He had heard me, and He was there helping me.

Psalms 147:3 He healeth the broken hearted, and bindeth up their wounds.

God Doesn't Get In Any Hurry!

I can be the first to tell you, God doesn't get into any hurry. I have pleaded with God and I have tried to compromise with Him. IDid He hear me? Yes! Have I gotten pregnant again? No. Will I? Sure.
See, I have learned that this is something that I don't have any control over. God has perfect timing. He doesn't get into any hurry, because He knows when "it" fits into His perfect plan. His perfect plan is just that, perfect. It all fits together for us. God doesn't do anything to hurt us. He knows best.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Be still!

Well, I have been trying to decide if I should take another round of clomid. I stink at making decisions, and I HATE clomid. The side effects are horrible for me, and I do ovulate on my own. So I thought and prayed about it. And this Bible verse came to me, "Be still and know that I am God." So I have decided to do just that. If i'ts God's will for me to be pregnant, I will be pregnant with or without the clomid.



"But Jesus beheld (them) and said unto them, with men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26

Be Thankful!

I was looking at facebook a few minutes ago and realized that ALL of my friends have babies. I started feeling down in the dumps.. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for them, and I feel like most of them are great mothers! I started feeling sorry for myself.. "They have their busy lives and schedules that are based around their kids. They have playdates, birthday parties, and chats with other mothers."
But then another thought popped into my head.....something my cousin said. "God answers prayers daily, we just have to give him thanks when he does." That is so true.
Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I am going to be thankful for all the answered prayers in my life. I am thankful that I have had another day to spend with my loved ones, I am glad that I have friends, I am glad God chose to let me have another breath of air, and I am glad that God is my Savior!
We should even be thankful for the unanssered prayers in our lives. God knows what He is doing. He has the perfect plan, and He answers these prayers in His time!

Psalms 118:24 This is the day which the Lord hath made, we will rejoice and be glad in it.